Aventura de la Diosa

Various

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 19:02:40 GMT

I have not decided upon what this entry will be build on. I just felt like typing in my livejournal for some unexplainable reason. Just got back from Europe 2 days ago. Somehow felt like i wasn't really travelling. I guessed it's cause I got so accustomed and comfy to the lifestyle there that was like assimilated into the locality of it all.

Anyhow, I'm thinking of flying off to HK aug-sep coz Eddy will be there which spells free accomodation. Not that I really wanna go HK, not much to do there anyway. Sure there's shopping, but I've since switched from those fashion for a good long time. If I do go, it's just I wanna get out of Singapore. As simply as that. And of course, it's one of the cheapest options I've got at the moment.

I think the travel bug has hit me big time. I didn't miss home one tiny weeny bit during the course of stay in Europe. I didn't even miss the local food which I usually helplessly would. Not a bit. Jesus.

I can't help but feel I'm becoming an obsessive shopper. As if all that shopping wasn't enough in Europe, I went shopping today again. I wish I can go shopping in States, so much cheaper there. Real Sales. Melvin, Sarah and I were discussing over lunch today that we should head west of States next year for major shopping spree. Sounds really good to me, especially since Mel knows exactly where we can get all the good bargains and he can be our driver. Haha.

I wonder if anything has changed. I feel it has but then again like the last time, nothing has indeed changed the moment we met. It's always my psychological fears and paranoia at work I guess. But where is my enthusiasm?

Bumped into H in town today. Hah, she didn't look fantastic. Okay, I know I'm bitchy but part of me was really jealous of her in high school. Now that she looks a little lesser than average, I can't help but feel abit thrilled. Bitchy bitchy. And of coz it pleases me even more as I saw her checking out my long legs and nice short shorts. Women. Tsk tsk.

Sorry for this chunky and semi-comprehensible entry. I mean if anyone is even reading it.

Thu, 26 May 2005 05:59:58 GMT

What do you learn about life sometimes? That you cannot always expect the best. That it is never suppose to be fair. So when it's bad to you, you should try to grasp something about the situation, reflect, take it in your own stride and move on. What you put in may not give you the returns you expected, sometimes, nothing at all. Or worst, negative returns. Some people are placed in your life to make you sad and hurt. Don't blame them because they are there just so you can realize how good others have been to you. Yes, it makes you sad because you start to have regrets for not valuing those good people but it is better late than never to show some appreciation, even if it's not in action, at least in heart. Some people come, some people go. This is all part of life. Even if things seem really bad, fulfill at least your part and do it well. If it eventually does not work out, it is just tough luck. I'm going to fulfill my responsibilities for another 2 days. Come what may next.

the point being.......?

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 03:47:32 GMT

can't really describe the saturday i'm living right now. it almost seems as if life is a standstill. i'm devoid of any emotions at the moment. my mind is a blank. no, it isn't a case where i'm down or depressed or troubled. it's just blank like that.

i'm not even thinking of "what-ifs" nor fantasizing about the future right now. no desires, no yearnings, no hopes. what sort of disease is this?

Maybe...when your mind gets overwrought from a period of excessive thinking, it happens? shit happens. Or.....i don't know and i'm not going to make any effort to know.

thus far, this has been my saturday, 11 dec 2004.

meaningfulness of simplicity

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 13:53:50 GMT

sometimes, it's the simplest things in life that makes you wanna jump for joy. just like how "a presto" typewritten twice instantaneously lifted my spirit.

i like the words "a presto", even how it sounds. ....a presto...a presto...the depth of my heart which those two simple words have reached is simply indescribable. italiano is indeed beautiful.

MSN NICK::Shyn::me gustan canciónes de italiano tambien

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 17:36:42 GMT

I never thought italiano songs can sound so beautiful. and tonight i was introduced to an especial heart-wrenching one.....

Andrea Bocelli - Nel Cuore Lei

Se
Conosci gia l' amore
Che vuole lei
Tu saprai che dovrai
Dare tutto quel che hai
A lei
Ti legherai finche vivrai, a lei...

Ti prendera il cuore
Ti vincera
Lei sara la tua strada
Che non puoi lasciare mai
A lei
Ti legherai finche vivrai, a lei...

E non c' e niente come lei
E non c' e niente da capire
E tutta li
La sua grandezza
In quella leggerezza
Che solo lei ti da

Sara cosi e poi
Sara di piu
L' amerai...l' amerai
Perche tu ci crederai
A lei
Ti legherai finche vivrai, a lei...

E non c' e niente come lei
E non c' e niente da capire
Lei e cosi
Puoi solo dire
Che piu ti fa soffrire
Piu ancora l amerai

Finche tu vorrai scoprire
Dentro un brivido che da
Il segreto della sua eternita

A lei
Regalerai
Quello che restera
Del tuo tempo che verra
A lei
Ti legherai, per sempre avrai
Nel cuore lei...

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If
You already know
The love she wants
You'll know
You have to give everything, all of it
To her
You'll become as one with her, forever...

She'll touch your heart
She'll win your heart
She'll be your path
That leads to what you lacked, the path
To her
You'll become as one with her, forever

And nothing can compare with her
There's really nothing to understand
It's just the secret of
Her greatness
The sheer joy
That she alone can give

And that's how, now, it will always be
Until it becomes even more
You'll love her, oh how you'll love her
Because you trust yourself to her
To her
You'll become as one, with her, forever

And nothing can compare with her
There's really nothing to understand
That's just the way she is
All you'll know for sure
Is the more she makes you suffer
The more you find you love her

Until at last that dawning
That in the thrill she alone can give
Lies the secret of her eternity

To her
You'll gladly give
All that's left
Of the time you've still to come
To her
You're as one, with her, forever
And she'll be there, in your heart

thursdays with xxxx

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 13:20:52 GMT

[01:33:58 PM] xxxx: so this brings me to my next question
[01:34:02 PM] xxxx: do u wanna be part of the show
[01:34:10 PM] xxxx: (bedroom scene)

yeah..that's xxxx for you ;p wat was he thinking? and then i'll appear on tvmobile, being the gal who got pulled from zouk into his bedroom? that's not very cool, is it?

zzzz

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 10:34:29 GMT

estudio en la biblioteca ahora. pero mis ojos estan en "ctrl-alt-delete mode".

hay un muy bonito chico. se llama leonard. tiene viente y uno anos. es muy simpatico pero bastante corto. jack, mi padre, esta al lado de una guapa chica. La chica es me! ;p

Tengo la cenar a las siete en punto con mis amigos, Derrick, Serah y Andrew. Que come? Pues.....pasta, carne? No se. O bebemos un poco vino?

Hasta pronto,
La chica

$$

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 14:46:53 GMT

yes, i found a part time job to last me from dec-may. at phillip capital. believe my luck

Vintage Madness

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 16:22:22 GMT

today, i had yet another stranger come up to me and ask where and how much i bought my swatch. seriously, i can't remember coz it was so long back plus what i had on was a re-matched face and strap piece. told her i cant answer her questions and she insisted that it must a special collection, not bought in singapore and blah blah...and went on with her theory until she finally walked off. i mean hey, this swatch is really old, can't you see the fraying string? sigh. some people just don't listen.

anyway, this incident reminded me of a pair of old white nike sneakers which i bought 4 years ago for 29.90SGD i think. i kinda threw it aside after wearing for awhile and left it to turn yellow. and decided that i had to wear it again this year for a performance. guess what? friends who saw it was like "oooo...so cool. where did you get that? must be expensive, look very vintage"...and blah blah. this is really shocking because if it looked stylishly vintage, it's really becoz it had been abandoned to collect stains and dust. not like i intentionally did anything to it.

hence, i decided that if i need cash now, there's definitely an avenue. sell my old stuff. stuff that's turning yellow, stains, fraying...whatever. and people actually think it's prized possession.

PWC vs DT

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 16:32:24 GMT

Right now, i'm in a super dilemma. In 9 hours' time, i'm gonna wake up, make a single decision and not think back. I will then either sign/not sign, send/not send the offer letter. Whatever it is, i shall just stick to my decision and not dwell on it anymore.

This has been dragging on long enough, while i look forward to a career with PWC, uncertainties in a new firm deter me. This is further made worse by the enjoyable experience i had with DT. PWC has the prestige, the brand equity, structured learning process, the portfolio. DT has the culture, the people, the interesting companies i would like to audit, the informidable IT system.

Which should i choose hence?

Operation Slut

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 08:17:46 GMT

it was such a relief that:

(1) my mum didn't disown me
(2) the school didn't sack me
(3) the evening tabloid (wan bao) didn't post our slutty pictures
(4) pearlyn didn't get shot

all in one night, we managed to turn into ultimate sluts. crazily dancing and enjoying ourselves amidst the leaders. but surely, we cannot refuse the important people's requests to dance with them on stage, can we? i mean, look, even HL went up to the podium, all in the good, clean name of fun and party.

but we are so glad that the news didn't print our slutty faces, although the evening channel news did show us playing drums. phew! otherwise, what would my mum think? "my daughter's such a disgrace!" what would the public think? "so fat and ugly and slutty. no shame!" what would the school think? "is this the image we wanted you to portray?"

and that pearlyn, in her excitement to take picture with HL, she nearly tripped over and hit HL. imagine if planted snipers think she's some assasinator...think she'll be shot flat down. haha...anyway, this event's definitely an eye-opener. oh yes...and that cute bodyguard too .... ;p

i made it for the big screen!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 14:31:50 GMT

YAH RITE.

apparently i appeared on channelnewsasia last night. haha. playing my congas, looking pro and stylo and all. my uncle and aunty were so excited that they wanted to film it.

i am a little excited but too bad i din get to check out how fat i look on screen. bet it's no prob my face can fill the entire screen ;p

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 09:05:48 GMT

Music

phew! finally done with the performance at esplanade concert hall. amazing that i'm actually so patriotic to perform on national day. oh well....but it's definitely great fun. esp when we start to do all our slutty poses. haha. also another plus point is to get to know joe, maybe can hire him to teach pro congas playing next time.

nowadays i feel like i'm a full time performer. endless performances, rehearsals, practices. first it was ron frank's farewell concert, then esplanade, this sat will be convocation, 21st aug will be at marina sailing club, 22nd (sep/oct?) will be sgx corporate event and UN gathering. and many more invites are flowing in. can really be draining sometimes, hope i can cope when school starts.

Check out some of the slutty photos ;p

School

School starts in 4 days and I have only managed to bid for 2 modules. Strategy and Spanish. Dammit! Curse all those juniors who dump their edollars. Adeline called me the other day and so I voiced out my displeasure. She assured me that it's likely they'll add vacancies to the classes. they better!

Career

Have voiced my acceptance to DT's offer. Think i'll probably go back there. afterall, it's not as if i didn't entirely enjoyed my times there. think i should be able to survive my self-imposed 3 years trial. after that, then maybe i'll consider other options which are more aligned to my passion.

Tue, 18 May 2004 08:28:42 GMT

我要睡觉。

marathon

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 16:53:25 GMT

cant take it anymore, tonight's the 3rd consecutive night i'm putting up in school, to rush stoopig reports and research projects. SUX! and this is not the end...after i finally get some sleep tml nite. Sat night will be camping in school again...for AMA presentation.

gosh! when will all these end? i cant take it anymore.

to ying jie, my dear friend......

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 05:34:54 GMT

be sure you'll be dearly missed because you've always been there for all your friends.
we'll remember the joys and laughters you've brought to us,
even on days of dark clouds and looming gloominess.

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there, upon the fields you lay, a fateful day.
drained of your last breathe.
Us, frantic hearts watched in dread,
our dear friend taken away from us.

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i'll always remember the moments we spent in Deloitte. those times we all shared. happiness, sadness, tiredness, complains, bitching, jokes. it'll always stay in my heart. our lunch adventures, wishing upon the well at far east square, savoring hot curry, going for statutory audits, calling names, mockery. all these will be safekept, they cannot escape. i know all the cats which you loved and pictured will too feel the pain. they too will cry in unison for the loss of a brilliant young lad.

Ying jie, my dear friend, rest in peace. you've led a beautiful life and you've made us all feel beautiful with you. take care......

who's going to be the next star

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 13:12:26 GMT

i wonder who will surprised me next on tv....

was slumped in front of the tv just now, and i tot one of the guy with tcs 8 looked vaguely familiar. so when my bro mentioned his name, and i did a memory check. *gasp* can't believe that guy on tv was the same guy i knew from sec sch irc days. wow!

maybe another of my friend is secretly tucked away in the far west, waiting for his/her big break into the hollywood scene? who knows?

blue lobster

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 16:14:13 GMT

what's blue lobster popular for? fish & chips right?

oki, here's my account....

wanted to dine at the newly set up blue lobster at suntec basement. sat down and an aminah waitress was taking our order...

aminah: would you like to try our dinner set?
me: what do you have for the set?
aminah: it's written over there (pointing to the chalkboard at the front counter)
me: (so u expect me to walk over??!) so what do you have? fish?
aminah: (blush, i dunno??) eh, let me check....(walks off to the board)

(walking back to our table)

aminah: we have pea soup, fillet...brownie...blah blah
me: so how much is it?
aminah: $7.95

upon hearing it was so damn cheap, we ordered 2 sets. out of chance, we later confirmed with the manager that the set was $19.95, so apparently our dearest aminah make a blunder. FLOP 01 imagine the big fuss if i was billed $19.95 x 2.

anyway, we cancelled the dinner set orders in time and requested for re-order. a chinese waitress came to us this time round.

me: seafood basket n fries for me
fren: soft shell crab n fries
chinese waitress: okay, that'll be calamari and seafood basket.... FLOP 02

fren and i came to the conclusion that over-exposure to seafood would make people forgetful.

10 minutes later......

aminah: excuse me, your order was with fries right?
me: yes, with fries.
aminah: sorry, we've run out of fries. it's on it's way. but we have rice, salad...
me: (with disbelief) okay....so how long will it take the fries to arrive?
aminah: i dunno.

FLOP 03

sighz. what went wrong? was it just the aminah, or the chinese waitress, or the restaurant? it was just too ridiculous to hear that a 98% empty fish & chips restaurant has ran out of fries. anyway, if you must know, we left without taking the third order. i din need excessive amusement in a single evening.

HOT!!

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 07:51:27 GMT

woash...it's so freaking hot out there. just went through one round of rehearsal under the scorching inferno. now awaiting to get dressed and chilling out in the library.

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 07:12:45 GMT

i tink 6838 will be the winning number tonight. haha. if that really turns out true, i'm quitting school and going full time gambling.

anyway, i've been boasting to my whole family about my windfall last night. damn amazing. borrowed this china travel guide and was browsing it at mr bean's with ning when i discovered a 10 renminbi in it. decided not to take it at first, i slotted it back. but when i flipped back to the pages, i discovered an 1 yuan. stunned that my 10 yuan has magically divided itself by 10 denominations, i frantically flipped through the other pages. and gosh i just couldnt believe when i found a 100 yuan. my eyes must have popped out then. and another flip, a 20 yuan, flip, 5 yuan. it went on until i colllected a grand total of 139 yuan (approx 20 plus in SGD) what a windfall!

that was not the end. just as a waitress was settling the bill for the table behind us. a mastercard came flying my way and landed next to my right foot. money was definitely heading towards my direction last night. we had a good laugh about my streak. amused at my luck, i fantasized aloud to ning about a briefcase full of USD crashing into me as i step out of the cafe. of coz that din happen. oh well ;p

i think it's a good omen. this 139 yuan is gonna be our seed fund for our china trip, pretty encouraging and definitely a motivation for us to go ahead. hopefully all will go well so we'll be on our way to discovering china soon........yay~

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 20:23:47 GMT

juz got back from sharon's house. had a few rounds of mahjong, some pool and tok cock session. andrew papa bought a new merz benz, even better than his previous and faster than alex's audi. n i had the honor to be the first passenger!!! heehee.....

b4 we left, all of us evil sistas propped ourselves in his car (think hijack), blasting the music with windows wind down and took a short ride, leaving him behind. hehz, would really be fun if one of these days all evil sistas go for girls' nite out like that.

so tonite was like a replay of the crazie times we spent together in year 1. play play play. kinda nostalgic i would say. how nice if we can stay lidat foreva. carefree. glad to see alex back frm HK, but sad that he'll be leaving again soon. always been a joy to have him around, doing stupidly irritating but entertaining things. would realli miss him man.

anyway, we planned to go for paul van dyk's during chinese new year. apparently it's at some "powerhouse" place. strange that i haven caught any news of such party. but den again, i've been enslaved and slogging away all this while. not sure if i can definitely make it coz would have to stay over at marina mandarin to spend new year as a family. haiz...

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to update, the day b4 was day 4 (08/01/04) and i din see mr chinaman. was quite disappointed once again. but i did managed to not think of him that much due to the overwhelming work load.

BUT

DaY fIVE- He's back! and so unexpectantly that i caught sight of him. i was going ard to the manager's seat to make a phone call when i saw him at the other side, reporting to manager leng leng. n yah, my heart was thumping abit. but i din like try to get his attention or say hi or anything. would have been potentially gossip-vicious if i did so. anyway, did ultimately managed to say hi when i was at the printer and he came up from the internal stairway. at first he appeared he was going to just pass by, but somehow he turned around at the magical moment (think "all in the right timing") when i fixed eye contact with him and there we go, "hi". hehehe....oh well, although he was assigned later in the day, i was contented to see him (even if it was for awhile) after 4 days.

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i hope i wont kena any more job with monica. her work always seem endless. i'm not looking forward for any more 3am work. thanks. let me go ogilvy & mathers please....

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saw lynnette at cafe cartel PS. abit paiseh coz i din turned up for band pract. wasnt my fault anyway, work ended so late (thanks to MY & TJK). anyway heard only got her and no-no turn up. oh well......

Wed, 07 Jan 2004 14:08:57 GMT

Day thRee.

din think i could last this long. but guess placing my attention on work helped. went to 2 law firms today, allen & gledhill and Baker & McKenzie. was pretty surprised that the latter is unlike other law firms. it's as new as deloitte's office n moz imptly, it's got good panoramic views. felt really tired today so cancelled tuition. sighz. wonder what's in store for me tml. wonder if the team will pull out from hard rock tml? wonder if i can catch a glimpse of chinaman?

bhangra

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 15:27:13 GMT

juz came back from bhangra training. damn tired but FUN!!! hehz, finally got the chance to learn bhangra drumming without feeling too overly intimidated by the "darkness which lurks". realized that the beats arent too hard to catch. in fact it's pretty addictive so juz keep playin' to feel it. but the siong part is having it strapped over my already, previously overwrought n faulty shoulders. guess i'll really be needing the massage soon.

i wanna comment on super filling lunch today. we wanted to go amoy st to makan but were lured into o'brien irish sandwich bar. my goodness! all (any type) of sandwich was going for flat $2.00. n so being the typical singaporean, i ordered the most expensive sandwich on the menu..."crabo something". super BIG, filled with salami, turkey, ham, greens, chunks of chesses, etc. i nearly wanted to puke coz i was obviously over-gorgin myself. n i even tried a serving of my fren's prawn cocktail which was fantastic. but seriously, no matter how cheap n good o'brien is. there is only this much of bread that one can eat in a day, perhaps even a week.

anyway, today is day two. i'm coping.

change of travel plans

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 05:55:07 GMT

i had earlier on planned to backpack to europe after graduation. somehow, unexpectations steered my directions eastwards.

B.E (b4 eugene aka mr. gorgeous chinaman) - backpack to europe
A.E - scenic tour to HARBIN, CHINA

heh, n so i had been surfing sites last night to gain more insights on the history, geography, etc of china. n chanced upon some pretty cool scenic pix of harbin. oh well, i actually used to think that only the west had romantic places.

of course, it helps when u put the face of mr. gorgeous chinaman with these pix.

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 15:02:55 GMT

just back from a small scale shopping spree.

(digress abit, stoopid "u" key is not working well on my keyboard. pray beta not be prob assoc. w motherboard if not hafta spent $$ again)

anyway, bought a top and pants from zara. two pairs of shoes from far east. had bravissimo double choc n coffee scoops. spent about $150. sigh, beta control a little, else gonna be broke again b4 my next pay check.

that's about it for today. (this "u" key is still irritating me, urgh!) looking forward to javanese massage two weeks from now.